I used to blog a reasonable amount, either through facebook notes or otherwise. Then I got out of the habit, which was a shame, and I only rediscovered it all when I went travelling, and found a blog the best way to keep everyone up to date.
I've actually really missed the ability to get my thoughts out, to ponder and to question, perhaps if only as a form of self-indulgent and much cheaper form of psychotherapy. I think it's good to allow yourself a space within which to note down your thoughts - it's good for future reference to see how you've changed, and it stops them all from being bottled up inside and never fully realised or resolved. However, obviously, because this is a public blog, I want people to read it as well. I have an ego too.
Recently the big thought has been, what's it all about? Where is this life going to, and what's the point? I believe in an Almighty God who is completely in control of this jolly little thing we call life, and I know a few other things too - He's got my best interests at the centre of His plans for me, He designed and created with specific intent and purpose, and His intention is to use me to create positive change in the world, for His glory. That's true of everyone else too, btw. But when it comes down to the nitty-gritty of real, everyday living, we lose sight of that wider perspective, or at least I do.
What I think God calls us to do is to realign our sight, so instead of looking down at our circumstances, and how they don't seem to be working out, or going in the direction we thought they would, we're looking directly at Him. It's not so that we forget about our troubles, like some form of escapism, but it's as we look fully intently at an all-powerful, loving God, that this life makes any real sense. God's will is for us to experience life, and life to the full, unlike the apparent idea that He's a form of killjoy, who restricts us in our lives and takes away all the fun. I suppose one big question is - who's cleverer, me, or God? Who actually knows what is best for me, and knows how to instigate it in my life? At many times, I've realised it's probably not me.
